Many years ago as I was growing up in that tireless place called New York City, I was always one who craved the excitement of city life and all that came with it as far as the increased proximity to the opposite sex.
It wasn’t always about the potential for romance, but I simply loved to explore the endless caverns of tall buildings and the streets that separated all different times of the day and night.
Now don’t get me wrong, I was always a good kid who aggressively avoided any type of illegal activity, crime and drugs, but I was so addicted to surrounding myself with the vast array of “people energy” and the individual stories that conversation with theses interesting strangers would bring.
Since I was living a very clean life in a very sinful city, I learned from up close and personal hands on experience how grimy human nature can be and decadent the bottomless abyss of the bad rotten spiritual fruits can cause one to fall.
So while I knew how to avoid most of these predatory entities who specialized in sucking down your life force for their gain, I can’t say that I completely avoided being “touched” those who were so convincing in a facade of decency and nobility.
But isn’t that what’s life is all about? To learn from your experiences?
Yes it is, but if the truth be told I don’t fancy the world around me as far as the Trojan horses of spiritual/character deception like I use to at one time many decades ago.
I refuse to be classified as a cynical older man, but I can’t promise that I’ll give my trust as blindly as I used to.
I myself like most people have had my fare share of being lied to, ripped off for money, cheated on and done wrong only to have the culprit create an entirely different scenario as to why we don’t communicate anymore and run with it as though it were the truth to others who didn’t know the situation deeply.
We all go through the draining negative situations in life but I recently woke up one morning simply knowing that I had reached my personal quota of them and decided to lock the floodgates of accommodation to ensure a drama free existence in my retirement years that are running up on me so swiftly.
Yes, this New York City boy who soaked in 38 years of living there to accrue a lifetime of tales to fill up my YouTube videos, blog articles and drawings has shut down any and all desire to live anywhere but a rural life with absolutely no urban drama and the entities that come with it!
I want a couple of acres at least 20 miles out from the closet SMALL town and the ability to collect my own rain water, use my own solar power, grow my own food and sell our own organic goods to those who have made the choice – a foolish one in my book – to live amongst the dysfunctional leeches who feed on each other like maggots in these unstable top heavy artificial living conditions called the bigger cities.
From there my day will consist of waking up when I choose and hanging out with Mrs. Scurv eating homegrown GMO-free Mangoes & Watermelon after a gourmet styled home cooked Vegan meal in the sun while still running the LanceScurv cyberplatform with whole days to do so without a worry in the world.
…….all day to draw as much as I want? Then I’ll finally be able to draw ’till my heart’s content and put out a yearly book of my controversial illustrations.
My only regret?
…….not having the ability to go back in time to tell the younger version of myself how much healthier and better country life can be so that I could have left the city a whole lot earlier.
But then again if I did that I wouldn’t have the crazy tales to share. But at the end of the day it all evens out as I feel so blessed that at 54 years of age I truly feel that my absolute best days are ahead of me when many in the world around me are feeling so hopeless and bleak.
For that I am forever grateful after all I’ve been through because God could have taken me off of this planet many decades ago so I’m thankful for every minute that the sun shines down on me and the soothing wind cools my skin.
…….it gets no better than that!
Peace, Righteous Love & Revolution Always,
Your Senior Citizen Brother,